flesh for vultures

what kind of god will appear today...

i don’t want god to see me this way

so i run from it

and cover myself up

a shameful thing

this sacred body

this temple...

i burn it to destroy the proof

or kill it      slowly

i accept the sin in secret

i give in to it

and find something i like

i pass the taste around

and lay back down

a useless mass of energy

flesh for feeding vultures

 

 

- for amie

2:25 am

indistinct whisper

undisclosed location

body formed

nights shadow and

moons glow

flowing soul-like

random perfection

new mathematics

in a lift

unearthly breeze

take to a hover

lie in sweat

settles and lowers

upon me

eyes

close to absorption

loves understanding

i fill with you

without separation

despite body

despite time

serenity

 

death and i

death and i

spent some time

hand-in-hand by the

riverside

we strolled through mud

slapped flowers for fun

and pissed our cares

at the sky

he kissed me once

with lips like hers

and left me lost

in genderless smiles

our second date‘s still

years away

unless he’s planning

a surprise

deathtrip

 

 

tangled roots / in the garden there is hope / cacti deliciousness

August sun

August sun

drinks drink from hand

sucks sweat from skin

flies birds to the shade

swims fish to the deep end

chases me to the red light

  for a moment to breathe

she lights a cigarette

and cracks the window

as if it wasn’t hot enough 

for death already

god was taught to me 

on Sunday mornings i stood in line

to receive my peace

sometimes 

god got stuck in my mouth

so i’d sneak in my finger

and god would release

i gotta god for christmas and i i stuck the sinners against the wall in my bedroom and i pretended to be jesus and i um made the sinners pray or else i told’em that i would use my power with my god and um then they would wish that they would’ve prayed like i told’em to... and... then i showed my friend my god and but he got a god too so we played and ran around the block ‘till i got him and took his god away and made him pray like i made the sinners in my room pray and but he started to cry so i had to use my god to make him stop... and so i won

cycles (with old photos)

from canvas to cave

from healthy to hell

and back again

full of myself to

filling myself to

sober refueling

i never lost you while

you were changing while

i too changed

   

i was no good and

really good, i was there

and nowhere

lip to chest to

belly through lip and

heart to hearts cycle

smile to sin to

scream to grin towards

you at the entrance

and the door

swung open

above a dream

i walked in

the sky was black

with stars above the sea

i sat down

beside her brow

and listened to her breathe

the air was soft

a river flowed

and fell into the scene

i stood up above her

and i

watched the picture sleep

falling down

beside her brow

i listened to her dream

diving in and out of her

like wind throughout

a tree

eyes awake

smiling eyes

the tender brush of hair

i leaned out

to kiss her lips

and watched her disappear

they as snakes

 

smooth as snakes

they rid themselves

sleek and stealth

coil and stretch

belly to vibration

pulse of the hunt

guidance of tongue

ambush and strike

when lies and truths

dispense the venom

paralyzing prey

Spring starts the pirouette

lighthearted and colorful

Summer sets the depth of spin

red with burn and churning

Autumn is the falling pace

the dawdling drop of intensity

Winter slows with sudden stomp

an echo in the hall resonating

 leaves on water / souls in limbo / halfway home

in the bin

she smells of tears

pools of sweat

cheap cigarettes

and eventual formaldehyde

her rattling, chattering

stories of expertise

promises, opinions

all tangled white noise

better than most

she’s carefully crafting

the requirements of

a perfect alibi

ripe in the room

vegetable decay

her burning compost

stiff as the whiff of

waste

she looked at me 

like i was crazy

i looked at her

and let go of the kite

the back of her neck

is a soft lunar landing

kisses bouncing

weightless 

slow motion

and i feel as if i am

that far from earth

and everything around us

as infinite

semblance of a benefactor / motivations of a leech